Catheryn
[Kittie]
18 years old
[2/27/93]
Writer
[poetry & prose]
Single
[in love]
Multilingual (I do translate)
[English, German, French, & Roman-Latin]
"Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is her. And this time I think you'll know: you're not alone! There is more to this I know. You will make it through, I know. You can make it out, you will live to tell!"
- You're Not Alone by Saosin
I'm the girl wearing those old blue jeans, a t-shirt with some kinda design because I hate longsleeves, some sort of hoodie, and white DC shoes. I've got glasses and my hair doesn't always listen but it frames my face regardless. I spend most of my time listening to songs on repeat so that I can memorize the lyrics that either no one or everyone knows. I do it all so that I can drown out my problems with the lyrics and escape, if only for a brief period of time. I've got both of my feet on the ground and my head in the clouds, beyond cloud nine and into space and oblivion. I'm just as solid and stable as New Orleans after Hurrican Katrina back in 2004.
I'm the girl who writes poems and stories about the futures I've always dreamed of, even though I usually doubt my own ability to acertain those futures. I chain my wrists to the ground because sometimes doing so is all that keeps me from running away. I'm often known to run from what I'm afraid of because I fear the emotional pain it causes me. I'm the girl either no one or everyone opens the door for cuz they either fear, hate, or love me.
I've got everyone fooled into believing I can solve all their problems by force and violence or sheer will power. Yet, those people could never have been more wrong. I'm no miracle worker, even when I sit here and pretend I am.
I'm the girl who suffers from severe bipolar and is constantly taking, as the song says, "one step forward and two steps back" while trying to attain the happiness that has eluded me for so long. No matter how many times I fail, I'm always trying to do the impossible because I'm the girl who never gives up; because I only give up when I've truly been broken or when I know it's a pointless task or truly impossible feat.
I've found the one person who makes me whole, yet I'm still trying to keep my head above the torrential waves of life so I don't sink or drown. I keep telling myself "I'll get there one day" because I want to be better than I was before.
♥
Current Residence: virginia, usa
Favourite genre of music: all kinds
Operating System: hewlett packard (hp)
Personal Quote: "fuck you. i'm awesome."